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You know that feeling you get
When you prepare for an exam and you read everything you can. You cover all the basics and tell yourself you’re fine.
Then you enter the exam hall and relax.
Then you see the question paper and heave a sigh of relief because you feel good about all five questions and tell yourself, you’ve got this.
Then the examiner tells you, you have just 2 hours to answer all 5 questions and you look at him like he’s suddenly grown horns.
Then you scramble for your pen and start writing, with that annoying voice in your head telling you not to bother because you know there is no possible way you would finish.
And you try everything to shush that voice.
And you write twice as furiously just to prove that voice wrong.
And when you’re nowhere near done, you’re told to hand in your paper because of course, time is up.
You hand it in while mentally throwing daggers at the examiner.
And you get terrified of what the results would be.
Then you start over-analysing all the words you wrote.
And you discover you really should have written ‘this’ or excluded ‘that’.
And a little voice in your head tells you should be fine but that other annoying voice says “please, you didn’t even finish”
Then you have to wait endlessly for the result.
In the meantime, you try your bestest to squash the negativity.
And you think of several ways of consoling yourself.
And you finally get the long awaited mail.
Yea, this is exactly how I’d been feeling lately. But oh, the joy of knowing you passed. You’re so giddy, you can’t think. The world is at peace again and you can breathe. Again.
Lately, God has been coming through. I'm not exactly where i want to be but i definitely am not where i used to be. And for that i am grateful. I have been feeling like i'm God's special project. He is definitely on my case. I constantly feel like doing some Stephen Boss aka Twitch moves (from So You Think You Can Dance) and dancing to the songs in my head. (groovy songs)
And the songs in my head? Try this: God in Me by Mary Mary (Can i crump to this?)
Or this: Ara Ile by Simi
Or this: Thank You by Mary Mary feat Kirk Franklin
And that picture of Twitch? Yea, i just like to ogle him. Cute huh?
Have an amazing weekend.